Today is About Love
November 9, 2009 at 4:11 pm | In General Thoughts, meditation, wise self | 1 CommentTags: creating your world, finding happiness, love, meditation, wise self
Today is about Love – the ether that is the core of it all.
It started for me this morning with a quote from Living with Joy by Sanaya Roman. The book is gold. I don’t believe it says many things that have not already been said. But it is filled with kindness and clarity, in a way that goes right to the core.
The quote:
“There is so much love available, it is as abundant as the air you breathe.”
And it got me thinking.
Or feeling, to be precise.
On the treadmill, at the Y, I meditate. I practice a unity with my deeper Self. There’s a whole other story wrapped up in this, but for now, let’s just say that it serves me very well to meditate while treading. And it surely makes the exercise fly by and feel blissful.
Given that Today is About Love, I begin meditating on Love. To be more specific, I begin a little game with myself that I call the Feeling Game. It goes like this: I choose a feeling, and hold that feeling in every fiber of my being. So I start holding the sensation of Love inside me. And it grows. And soon it becomes me as love. All my particles are Love.
And suddenly I notice an extraordinary softening. My edges have melted away. All those internal things that feel grabby or needy, competitive or wanting, judgmental or lacking…they are gone. There is nothing here but soft space – generous, kind, understanding…
Loving.
Today is About Love, and I had become it.
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The thing I marvel at, every time I play the Feeling Game, is that there is no external driver to the sensation. I wasn’t in a circumstance (the treadmill!) that was a particularly Love-filled place, nor was I even thinking a thought (e.g. my children’s laughter) that elicited the feeling of Love. Instead it was completely and entirely a fabrication – something I elicited simply by inviting the feeling to come into me.
There was no need for anything except my intention.
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So wait…that’s how we find love?
That’s it??
Wow. How beautiful is that?
Not sure where to go
November 2, 2009 at 11:23 am | In General Thoughts, being guided, wise self | 3 CommentsTags: choice, creating your world, energy, heart, path, way, wise self
It’s been awhile since I last wrote. Eight months. Feels almost like a lifetime, but not quite.
I’ve been mulling something lately, wanting to gain courage for a “thing” that’s calling me.
And my stuff has come up in the process.
Fear.
And I’ve looked this fear in the eye for the better part of a month. I’ve looked at it from every angle…I’ve asked for it to leave, I’ve done my best to outsmart it. But it’s still there.
How do I know? Because I haven’t yet taken action.
Why? Because I’m still waiting to feel entirely right.
Not just mostly right, but entirely right. I’ve been waiting to be fearless.
This “thing” that I’m mulling is a book collaboration with a new, dear friend. And the notion to collaborate is coming from a place deep within. It’s coming from a place that continues to call me, despite the layers of fear that are doing their best to get in the way.
What I’m realizing, in this moment, is that fearlessness is not about removing those layers. It is simply about having the faith that when I move from my heart, the outcome is exactly as it’s meant to be.
My only job right now is to allow this inner calling to Be. The simple act of allowing is all that I’m meant to do.
That’s it.
From there, what will be will be.
I have not written in 8 months. Two hours ago I quietly requested a sign – a gentle nod that it was time to allow this “thing” flow through me, unhindered. When I sat at my computer a moment ago, I had an email awaiting me. A reader had stumbled upon my inactive-for-8-months blog, and was asking me to post more. And when I logged into this account, my last (and forgotten) comment was the same: write more, please.
So here I am, smiling at the beauty of it all – and writing more.
I started this entry with no idea what was going to come through me. And now, the title “Not sure where to go” is obsolete…for now I know precisely where to go……….
This is your message. This is your way.
January 30, 2009 at 2:43 pm | In General Thoughts, meditation, wise self | Leave a CommentTags: energy, journey, meditation, path, space, stillness, way, wise self
I haven’t posted in a few days – but the meditation is still going strong. Shifting and morphing, but more powerful than ever.
I did an exercise with my Creative Healing class last night. I led them through a brief relaxation: grounding through their root chakra, opening through their crown chakra, and feeling light/love/peace flowing straight down through their core.
Then I asked them to envision the person they hope to be, the Wise Self that they’re aiming for. I had them ask this Self to write a letter to their current Being, explaining how to become the Wise Self. Here’s what my Wise Self had to say:
The more time you spend here, the more you get to know me, to know this space…this is not just where you hope to be; it is also your path to get there.
I know I keep saying this to you – and it’s because you keep asking. You keep asking for guidance, for expansion, for signs.
All of it – all the beauty and magic and wonder – it’s all here. Right here, in this very space you’re in right now.
This space is not the end; it is the path. It is itself. This is what they mean that it’s not the destination, but the journey.
In a very real way, the time you spend in this space is the precise joy that you are seeking. It does not just lead you to the joy; it is the joy.
That’s why I keep telling you to “stay with this,” – to keep coming to this space – because this is your key. It is your answer.
It is all you need to know, and all you need to do.
This is your message.
This is your way.
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